Sometimes I’m tired, I don’t feel like fighting anymore. It just seems like it never gets easier. Why does it never get easier? WHY does it never get better? Why is it always out to get me. I’m sick of being grateful, and smiling and being nice and having to talk to people and pretending that I like being here. I’m sick of having to always rescue myself, I’m sick of having to be strong all the time, I’m sick of it and honestly some people have it way worse. I’m just having a bad day.
hard
I don’t got it all the time…
I may feel like I am crazy 99.9% of the time, but that’s ok. I think that feeling crazy means you’re doing something right. Have some confidence in the fact that you don’t “got it”. This life has only one objective and it is not to know everything. You actually already know everything you need to know, its all there, it has always been there, the only thing that’s missing is confidence. Have confidence in anything that comes your way, good or bad, have confidence in it. Confidence that the downs means there is either something wrong, or something better. The downs are road signs that are trying to direct you somewhere.
Happiness is hard
Happiness is hard work man!
You have to learn to isolate your own needs, then hone in on those needs, and finally respect them. I love a clean room, but I have to remeber to respect my needs enough to do it everyday even when I really do not feel like it.
The same dilema occurs with working out, reading, writing, and driving I have to find time to do things that either make me happy, or will lead to happiness. Sometimes things are hard to do, but you keep reminding yourself of how happy you will be later on in life.
It’s true a lot of people find comfort in being miserable, thats why so many of us are depressed and such. Just Do, create, DO, just keep DOing thats the secret. The secret to happiness.
Cheiyenne 